If I had to find a title for this ninth month of 2021, this would be it.
A month with some amazing moments, but also a month I would really like to forget. Mostly because it made me really sad, especially during its last week. But that’s what makes life incredible, now, doesn’t it?
Hello awesome nerds and happy Thursday everyone!
I’m going to embrace the cliché once again, just to say that I don’t know where September went. This month seemed to fly by way faster than the previous ones, probably because I was so freaking focused on work that I didn’t really have time for anything else.
Between working at our family business, managing BookBrewed and preparing the September boxes to ship, the first couple of weeks were a total blur.
I don’t really remember doing anything else aside from working. I was getting home, having a bath and basically reading a few pages of my books before falling asleep. Don’t even get me started on my reading challenge… I only read two Greek books, both of which were essential for the BookBrewed readalongs. So, it was basically more work, combined with a little bit of reading. Still, I very much enjoyed both of them and I’m really glad I featured them in the August and September boxes.
If I want to be honest though, I miss being able to read at least six books a month. Where did these days go? I’m already three books behind schedule and if I want to complete this year’s reading challenge, I think I’m gonna turn to audiobooks for a little while, just to make some progress in October.
And that’s partly the reason why, despite having an amazing time this September, I also started feeling as if everything I’ve been doing over the past four years has become… obligatory. From reading, to blogging, to uploading pictures and videos. Things that used to bring me joy, started adding up to my stress levels.
I wanted to vlog while in Athens, but then I started stressing about how much time this vlog would need to be edited, how much more work I would have when I’d get back to my hometown and how I would be able to do everything.
I wanted to read a few more books this month, but then I started stressing about the amount of sleep I’d get, if I stayed up all night to finish these books.
I have enough stress and anxiety as it is. I really don’t want to add more to it.
Yes, I love taking pictures and posting them to my Instagram account. I love interacting with you guys, sharing thoughts, opinions and feelings about various topics. I love being part of a community that is supportive and generous (well, most of the times). I love, love reading books.
The problem though is that… this hasn’t been the case, either, lately.
So, my question is basically this one…
Do I take a step back, regroup and come back when I’m ready? Or do I keep posting as it is, possibly ending up with a burnout?
I’ve been dying to say this to everyone lately. All I want is some peace and quiet.
I do believe that my body reacts to my anxiety. It’s always been like that. So, it didn’t really come as a surprise when, last Monday, my gynaecologist told me that he needs to write a prescription to me. Yet again.
He said it’s nothing serious but I’ve been feeling even bluer than before. I guess this was the last of it… I feel like I can’t take any more.
These past few days I’ve been thinking a lot about all the things I used to love doing. All the things that started making me feel more stressed as the years pass. They were the same.
Maybe it has to do with the fact that my work schedule has become more demanding lately, maybe with the fact that I cannot combine doing things as well as I used to.
In any case, I’ve come to the decision to take a step back, at least until I feel myself again. I was already thinking of taking a break this November, but there’s a fine chance I will take some time of until the end of 2021.
I still don’t know… I just hope that you respect this decision and you will be here when I decide to come back.
How was September for you guys? Do you have any fun plans for October? Did you read any good books this month?
Let me know everything in the comment section down below.
Thank you all so very much for stopping by once again. It truly means the world to me and I want you to know that I most certainly don’t take your presence here for granted. I never will.
Till next time… Toodles! 🥰